What if I said that looking at our past and our behaviors is a spiritual discipline? What if I said that this practice actually brings us closer to God?
In Mere Christianity C.S. Lewis writes “A man does not call a line crooked unless he has some idea of a straight line.” As we look at our lives it might have felt good or maybe shameful to write what we did. However, for us to do that we would have to have a gut feel or a knowledge of how things should be or could be. It is actually a disappointment that drives this inventory.
It is that disappointment that can allow us to see what God wants for and from us. It allows us to see his power and love for us. It has the ability to increase our desire for a relationship with him. Isn’t that exciting?
With this practice, if we allow it, we will see what we are worth to him and how he designed all of us in unique ways to live in a peaceful community with each other.
This week as you look at your grudge list look at why you wrote that that person or situation and what aspect of you or your life would God have wanted it different for you. Is it your opinion of yourself, your insecurities such as money, what you believe is your right(s) or any other aspect. We then can then see a pattern emerge of what drives us.
Until next time, Love God with everything you have, thank Him for all the good and the bad, and talk with Him often.
